The road to sucess.

This month's Theme -  The road to sucess is full of bumps and the occasional dip.

I should change it to Lumps not bumps, the worse part about building muscle is you can feel the fat so much better sitting on the muscle......gross.  And as for the dips, you know who THEY are, I swear if one more person tells me I am crazy for doing this I am going to scream.  That ought to simplify what is worong with this world ina nutshell, no one wants to anything hard, or that involes self control or sacrifice.

I have lower body today, and I pushed myself so hard on monday I can still barely move.  I am praying for the motivation to get myself to the gym. 

I have a pair of bright Yellow heels that are mine when I lose 5 pounds, and as much as I hate weighing myself because the scale isn't moving thanks to my muscles, i should  have said inches when I made the deal.  Stupid 5 pounds. 

This is the hardest part for me.  I am sore and tired, and I am not losing weight, and the muscles in my body are full of water.  I am getting bigger instead of smaller.  I know it goes away,  and in the next few weeks I am going to see some changes.  I am not discouraged just impatient, and I have to keep reminding myself it took two years to do this to myself, so if it takes a year to undo this mess I am doing great things for myself.

Uhm Ouch!

I am finally done going through my carb withdrawls, and have got my body into a pretty stable ketosis state. (If you are wondering what Ketosis is -  in a nutshell it means your body is getting it's energy or fuel from fat stores instead of the instant energy provied by empty carbohyrates)  I am  still a little run down, but I am going to attribute it to the fact that I can't move without hurting somewhere.  It's the good - I worked my muscle out- kind of hurt, but pain is pain and it tends to make one not want to move.

I love getting to this point because my body no longer screams for me to put garbage in it.  It always helpful to the weight loss process when your body is working with you.

I have of course gained a bit of the weight I lost last week back due to muscle, but I can already see my stomach flattening out a bit.  I don't really care what the scale says other than for reference.  If you are not doing weight it can be a great tool, but a tapemeasure is my best buddy.

My biggest setback...I hate to eat.  I find it inconvenient. 

Today is upper body again, whoooooo hooooo my favorite.  I cannot stand working out my lower body, it make me mad to think i have to do it again in 5 days...even when I was in the best shape of my life, I hated it.

Oh an in case this blog entry bored the crap out of you......i wrote it for me. :)
Later days,

Kami

Eating healthy is hard- but not for the reasons your thinking.

So I have cut out empty carbs, and preproccessed foods from my diet.  So no chips, candy, crackers, little to no fast food, no sugars, breads.   Do you know how hard it is to eat enough calories when you cut that stuff out of your life?  Hard!!!!

 I ate a marinade chicken breast, pinapple, broccoli and cauliflower, and I still had less than 400 calories, well it would have been 400 calories if I had been able to eat it all.  I ate 3/4 of it and I was so full I had to stop or empty myself of the previously comsumed calories....I had a small snack 2 hours later 100 calories, and when dinner rolled around I was still so full I almost cried when I had to eat. 

I am going to have to get some avacados and sugar free peanut butter, and nuts, or add more butter.  Something to get my calories up... People who diet are stupid.  If you eat good food you don't have to worry about ever being hungry again. 

Someone asked me why I was on a diet and I laughed.  I am not on a diet I just stopped eating the stuff that was killing me...(except one meal a week that I can eat whatever I want)

No if I could just figure out some cardio to do that i don't dread.

Sometime Utter Horror is the best Motivator

I have been trying for 2 years now to find the motivation to get back into shape, and no matter what I have done it just doesn't stick.  I have tried paying myself, I even have a 15 year reunion this year and not even that has been enough to motivate me.  I think we all have to have some driving reason to do something we don't want to do.  Well I finally found mine.

I knew I had gotten fat, and I could see how heavy I was but I was still only mildly disgusted.  Phil and I have been teaching a couples dance class which has been a blast except for the mirrors everywhere ....you would think that would have been a motivator right?......Nope I can just look at my face and my feet...I think those are cute.  At the end of the session We made a video that is a quick review of the steps so our class can pop it in if they forget a step.......you guessed it, that was my horrifying moment of true awareness.  it wasn't that I was fat, I already knew that, it was the stuff I edited out...me walking away from the camera to ready position.....I had that nasty fat lady butt. I don't know if I can describe it....it's the one that your body makes all kinds of jiggle creases and bumps when you take a step.  That jiggly fatty bouncy butt you could feed a family of four off of.

I processed it eternally since my sweetheart was sitting next to me while I edited, but inside I was a wreck....I don't see that angle of myself, and he has been looking at it for years...... :(

So it is the beginning of week #2  I am down 2 of the 30 pounds I need to lose.  Now 30 pounds may not seem like a lot, but I am under 5 feet, and I carry most of  my weight in my lower body.  5 pounds can be a full pant size for me.

Goblin project. #4

Here is the finished project. It took forever to post it I know, but better late then never right? I was so busy making costumes for my other kids I ran out of time for some of the cooler accessories I wanted to make., I turned out all right in the end though. I dont have any picutre of me making the hat, and you wouldn't want to do it the way I did anyway. I just started sewing pieces together and pinning and ticking until it was somewhat how I wanted it. Then I sewed the edges of the hat, vest, and some leather patches I sewed on on my pants ( which you can't see) with artificial sinew. The costume was about 20.00 total as I had to buy more liquid latex. I wish I could pind the pictures I took of my pants. They turned out super cool, If I come across them I will update this blog

I was feeling kind of bad that no one came and talked to me at the party, but I found out later that no one knew it was me, and I scared the crap out of most people....That is my definition of a perfect costume. Halloween is in 6 months, and I need new ideas for this years costume....anyone?